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Name: Nicholas
Country: United States
State: Indiana
Birthday: 2/9/1987
Gender: Male
Interests: i enjoy writing.. i hope to make it a profession one day. and i enjoy singing.. or trying to sing.
Expertise: I am an expert in messing things up, and i do enjoy to occasionally make things right.... though that isnt my area of expertise.
Occupation: Student
Industry: Education/Research
Message: message meEmail: email me
Website: visit my website
Member Since:
1/21/2004
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| im just kinda updating for no reason.. i have no purpose in doing it, but maybe someone is bored and wants to read or something... whatever man, whatever.
so friday i went to the movies with my friends elini and davey... we saw dawn of the dead... it was orgasmic.. and ended it with a lil chess at his house.. saturday.. i dont remember all to well. saw mitch for the first time in a while.. it was pretty cool.. and ended the night with a lil school of rock at the koons... sunday.. woke up late for church and i was sad about that... and i chilled at the koons for a while, and went to church again, then went home.. it was a decent day.. all in all... nothing special.. but what is?
though i did find out that my friend is dating another guy, i was kinda upset about that... nothing i cant get over.. it will all work out.. makes me write really good songs... i enjoy that.
so that was my weekend.. it was as good as a pickle on ice, if you will... the other weeks before, yeah... i dont remember them... i havent had any stories or done anything exciting lately.. which makes me sad.. i wish i could have fun like that again, without wondering if there could be something better to be doing.. i wish i could get away from that feeling. oh well... talk to ya'all later.... hicks... | | |
| i guess, from what you have told me, it has been a really long time since i have updated.. my bad. (i really should just let that be it... piss some of you off) lol... anyways, a lot has happened... so brace yourself..
feb. 14: i had a nice valentines, i went and saw most of the butterfly effect with this girl i know.. but no one else knows her.. she doesnt go to our school... it was fun...
uhh... lots of crap happened that i didnt need to happen..
now: i am going through withdrawl, again, almost through it.. need to survive a little longer.. like one day.
i basically restarted my relationship as friends with the first person i ever loved.. i do wonder how that is gonna go.. cuz look at it this way.. we restarted.. we agreed on new beginnings as friends... what does that mean? does it mean friends forever? or does it mean friends with a possibility of a future relationship.. because of our chemistry? i think it means both.. like, we need to be friends for now.. but in the long run, who knows what could happen, and when i say long run, i mean it... that is prolly the closest thing to my heart right now.. always has been. i am really eager, but nervous to see how this goes.. because i loved this girl, and pretty much still do.. and i would take a lot to explain all of how i feel to everyone.. and as much as i love this girl, i guess i am trusting fate and God to allow her back to me again.. i really shoulda saved that message we had.. (random thought... ADD child).. cuz she also said we could talk about boys and girls to eachother.. and that she would have to try hard not to get jealous.. so what does that mean? you all tell me, is there hope? and i do beg that there be no bashing and crushing of this perosn... becasue she was the world to me.. and is still one of my best friends... im just gonna trust God, being the Christian boy that i am... i swear to you that it is hard though.
that happening tonight made my life suck a lot less.. me being emo boy tonight.. miostly cuz i havent been a great kid (smoking, and what-not).. i almost ruined a marriage, kinda.. though it isnt my fault, just centered around me... so it feels like it... i dunno.. ive had a lotta problems lately, and i am paying for them now, and i have a lotta work to do to redirect myself.. so i can enjoy my life again, but, slowly, it is all starting to shape back up.. and i can thank God for that.. call me brainwashed or what not... but it really is an answer to prayer, how my life is turning out.. (the above thing about that special person.. i just wanted a way to go.. and now i have one.. and i think that things are gonna turn out good, and even if they dont, i really have a good friend now.. and i want that more than anything..; and my life is starting to shape up.. i dunno, ADD child lost his train of thought and what not...) but trust me when i say that there is something to what i believe in.. and i wish all of you knew exactly what i was trying to say, cuz i am prolly not making much sense.. but i do beg.. give God a chance.. you honestly dont know what could happen.... and i know i sound like a religious fag or whatever.. but ill take that if that is necessary...
i think i am done now.. i still have a lot to say.. but i cant put emotions into words.. and that sucks...
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| hello everyone..
to Adam Wragg, i love you.. that needs to be said..
and yesturday was my birthday.. i was over at grace's.. and it was a good time.. i didnt really have time to get online or anything, so i am sorry for that. but i still enjoyed my birthday.. through all of my friends staring at me in the morning (thanks again, adam), and chilling at grace's house. and through almost staying the night at justin's house and coming home.. which i am not really gonna talk about.. that sucked.. oh well... i refuse to let anything ruin that day..
today is a lil different. coming home on a half day and doing nothing.. cant say i really mind.. i was kinda tired.. and you know i hate social interaction at pizza hut, not to mention the very tasty pizza i hate so much... but its cool.. 364 days left until i am 18!!! that is a wierd thought.. me being able to vote, and able to do all of that legal stuff.. wierd... and 364 days until a hopeful bliss.. being an adult means i dont really have to listen to my dad cuz i am an ADULT. so i can stay out late and do cool adult things, whatever they do.. and if my dad has a huge problem with that.. he can kick me out, and i can live at my friends house... the Koons... (not black people.. they are brothers. not friends.. i mean, they are brothers and friends) or i can stay at anyone's house who will accept such a bum as myself.. i cant wait.. i am way to hopeful for such a long period of time to wait.. oh well! im excited! talk to all of you later! | | |
| today is gonna be a good day... it has to be.. its friday, im going out with my mom tonight.. and i dont know what the night will bring me.. and after that... some people know... i call it the things that no one hears about.... but i am prolly gonna late. and today is my second day without habits that are bad.. i guess people can know.. i just didnt want people to know cuz then they would all be like, "what? you cant quit. you are sooo stupid." so i decided to not tell anyone. so now everyone can know.. and it would be really dumb of you to not support me.. cuz i wanna and you guys want me to, so why discourage me even if you have doubts? but i am doing fine, and i am determined not to pick up the habit again.. i gave them away, just so i wouldnt be tempted.. and i am grounded. so that is that. and tomorrow is turnabout.. which i am stressing over.. i have to get stuff together still.. but no worries... it is going to be fun though, and everything will work out.. it always does. so i am gonna go now.. my day is about to start.. i will talk to you later.. and see you all later.
a fond fare well.
nicholas. | | |
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